I think it's funny how after sharing your life and time with someone, you learn to pick up on their "ways". Even though you are no longer around them, you can tell when something is happening in their life. You have learned their behaviors and mannerisms, and when they either start doing something, or cease doing something else, you KNOW what's up. It doesn't help that I am a naturally very observant person and pay very close attention to detail (when I want to). And then there's that whole "sixth sense" thing.
My roommates disregard my beliefs and tell me I am crazy and or paranoid... but deep down, you know they are wrong. You don't have to say anything to me, I already know.
And here we go again in this never-ending cycle of trying to find ourselves in this crazy world and trying to find... wait, what is it exactly that we are trying to find? I don't remember... Was it love? Companionship? Great sex? A mind stimulating conversation? Someone to connect with in the deepest of deep levels? What is it? A combination of the foregoing?
I think the end result that we each want for ourselves is happiness, which can mean different things for different people. Maybe it's having someone lay next to you and know that that person has your back no matter what. Or maybe it's knowing that that person loves you unconditionally. Or maybe it's to know that that person is on your team and will do anything in his/her power to make sure you are the happiest person alive. Or maybe the answer is a simpler one: Maybe, just maybe, you already feel like you have everything you [think you] want and all you are looking for is to meet some primitive urge that is essential to your being. You really don't care about anything else at this point other than meeting the quota of this urge. Ah, we have been blind sighted. We cannot see past this urge, it has consumed us... we loose those values that we once held so dearly. But wait, there have been other factors in all this. Yes, there is more to the story.............................................
Anyway, those are some of my thoughts at the moment.
